So. How abou another round of how much I suck? Ha not so much this time although I have written zero more for my script which is bad, but i got sick. And my brain is not at its best, yet refuses to let me sleep. I want to write but I dont want to while im not at 100% i'll only do that when i get desperate. But mark my words I will get up to the end of act 2 by the end of tomorrow night, even if it kills me.
Hopefully not as I would still have another half to go, then all the rewrites.
Currently I am awaiting heroes season 3 ep 3 to load on hulu. Brilliant website that is nice and legal, though a teensy beat sneaky as I have to use a backdoor to use it, but i get ads like everyone else which pays for the show so all is good. It takes ages to load as its streaming, and the worst kind as it doesnt ever show how long it takes and going backwards resets the stream for some reason, but i dont mind
it just takes twice as long to watch is all.
in other news. Went home the past weekend to see the family, mostly to see the new baby and to hear all about pams american adventures and also to see roxy one last time.
So, pam and renee werent there due to boyfriends which was lame. And cayden was constantly up and crying when I got to alainas which was less fun. Not a baby fan. The next day was better cept for noone being home when i woke up and feeling like being there was a huge intrusion and a waste of time. Played wii all day with the conders. Thats alaina and her family for those not in the know. Fun times, too bad my retro controllers died for no reason recently leaving me stuck with only 2 wii controllers. Bah.
For my birthday pam got me a $5 las vegas chip, a deck of cards actually used in play at the fabulous casino, a goomba on a skateboard keyring and a hollywood walk of fame star with my name on it which was the coolest thing of all. If i had blu-tac it would go on my door.
And yes roxy is old and needs to be put down. The official story is that mum got pluracy and so couldnt take roxy for her daily walk and so her back leg seized up and now she is a sad lump that can only lay down and has to be carried outside to go toilet, and mum isnt very good at carrying her either.
She looks at us with a look saying, why? why do you leave me like this. It is a very sad sight. I gave her a brush and layed on top of her in the sun for a while, which motivated her to eat which was nice but mum needs to stop putting it off and put her to sleep already. She had to wait for pam and me to come home and now i think shes waiting for someone to dig a grave. Which I would have on sunday but i got sick.
I think it might be matamata cause everytime i go back there this year I get terribly sick. TO the point of being unable to function properly and yet I force myself to function, did filming yesterday and worked last night. when i should have been sleeping. did 55 hours worth of editing today as well. Which was not as bad as I would have just sat on the internet all day as I seemed to do when I came home, but that was because i had to cook dinner and then well one thing led to another and here I am in bed having not worked on the rest of act 1 like i would have wanted. And its not like theres much more to do, just gotta hunker down and do it. I just hate having to stop, so tomorrow is definitely the day to do it. Im just gonn have to leave my washing piling up as i am not wasting a day doing errands like i did last friday.
Two episodes of angel with natalie tomorrow? Hmm I dont want to stop a good thing. Plus looking at tv helps sometimes, usually it makes me feel worthless but what you gonna do.
My eyes are so sleepy but the rest of me isnt, its a pain. I hope they'll let me awaken for tomorrow. Got 3 hours of other peoples scripts to read. Which may sound pointless and dull but it is actually incredibly helpful in looking at what works and what doesnt. I find it incredibly easy to figure out how to make someone elses idea better, but when it comes to my own I am crippled by my oveeranalytic nature. If I was given a premise and characters I could totally warp them into doing my bidding. But to start from scratch? Its incredibly hard, especially if one wants to stay away from stereotypes. Also not doing a sitcom is much much harder as a sitcom is all setup setup setup joke.
Hence why the lesbians and karl only took me two weeks to do.
Natural comedy is so much harder to do successfully. I fear that people wont understand or it comes across as way to cheesey. My lecturer and natalie sem to enjoy what ive done so far, i just wish i had some fellow students who werent second language students.
In actuality I have 2, but they are almost never there and one of them is doing this paper for the wrong reasons.
He's using the two papers I am doing to create some lame over expositional film about hamiltons maori history (not being racist its just an incredibly lame script with a character walking around the city while his voices tells us about the history)
We got into an argument over his film lacking conflict. As he called it a pschological drama and said theres no conflict here so no drama.
It'd be like calling an encyclopedia a psychological drama.
'I didnt know much about this towns history, and then i was told the history this is what it is:' thats his script for three pages (about 2 months ago now)
Before you get all respect other peoples attempts and they'll respect your high and mighty one me let me explain something. Since uni has gone back both my classes have been students presenting their work to be critqued and analysed by their peers and the lecturer. He has not shown up to a single one. (except today and only because he thought he was presenting and then needed to stick around for additional lecture content)
So I am allowed to be bitter. Its rude not to show up to everyones presentations just because you have no obligation to. My partner in editing wants to boycott his presentation next week in favour of more editing time. I am very tempted to agree. Wont be skipping the scriptwriting one though as that is meant to be much further along then it currently is. Last week hindered by my script analysis bing postponed and filming obligations and this past week due to family obligations and sudden sickness. But its time to buckle down now, I want to come clean tomorrow in class but I also dont want to.
I have been playing around with what I want to write in my head for the past to weeks but I know when it actually comes to writing itll be entirely different. Ive got to get over this fear and stop making excuses. And yes I am fully aware that instead of writing this ranty entry i could be doing my script. But you seem to forget that I suck.
