Mum, Sharna and Paris came to see me yesterday we had a picnic by the lake and then i had to chase the girls all over the park getting me all sweaty before work, oh well. I find it really sad that I am begginning to prefer work over everything else, home and uni life. If it wasnt for work this year i would have gone crazy i dont know how i managed to survive the last 3 years. Its great to have somewhere to escape to even if customers piss me off sometimes. What is wrong with home life, its just happening all over again. Seeing as this is the 4th time it HAS to be something I do. But I'm not a dick, I dont steal or lie or have wild and crazy friends over all the time. I respect peoples space and all I ask for in return is some companionship. This seems to be too much for everyone, dooming me to myself. And I hate being around me when I'm depressed and lonely. Its not fun times.
Thursday morning aaron ran over my helmet on accident rendering it useless. He sends me a text i dont discover for 4 hours apologising. Which came across as flipid. And noone has spoken about it since. I did mention having to buy a new helmet on thursday night before the disney night and Nell decided to come for a walk to the warehouse to, when we got there it turned out that hey sarah and aaron also wanted to go to the warehouse and drove there. Also there was no offer to replace the helmet, I would have told him not to worry about it, for it was my fault for leaving it in the precious garage where his far more important car lives. Am i bitter yes. Do they know? Who knows. Im not going to talk about, theyre already pissed at me for nothing, so I dont care.
Uni sucks, these assignments suck. I am just not motivated enough to care.
I have done countless of stupid and pointless excercises in crap in my years at uni. But I still learned things from them. This teaches me nothing.
My proposal is due tomorrow, and I cant find the energy to write it. I know I will eventually. I always do. But for now i just dont want to. And it makes me feel like crap. I wish i could pretend it was the last minute on the first day and then I would feel the bliss that follows insead of this crap. I could blame getting sick for screwing me up but we all know thats a lie.
This is like 7th form all over again. Accept promises were made. I wish i was swamped with so much to do, instead im being pestered by a puddle that i have to roll around in in order to gain satifactory saturation. Only the puddle has dried up and im rolling around in dirt. And its getting in my eyes.
I didnt expect to be fun, but i did expect it to be worthwhile. This is a load. The dirt actually turns out to be old dog crap run over by a lawnmower. Now my prom dress is ruined.
A girl brought a kitten into work last night it was cute but she had called it possum and so i lost all interest.
That girl was weird, everyone knows you're meant to stuff puppies into your shirt and bring them into supermarkets. Also random peoples bags on the bus. I wonder if Kelsy remembers us ever? Would we be more or less memorable?
The internet is my world and it is also my prison. I am lying on my bed writing in here when I could be downstairs attempting to engage in conversation with my flatmates and growing fed up with them arguing over crap i dont care about. That boy released from prison after murdering was a hot topic these past few days. I finally got Nell to stop going on about it. (she belives that he shouldnt be punished because he was influenced by people and when your 12 you still dont know right from wrong), i got her to stop by telling her this. Heres how i think about these things, does it effect me? no. So i dont care. I know its selfish but im tired of hearing about that stupid boy. So ive gone and written about it in my diary for future reference. Very smart.
I dont care if he stays in or out. As long as he doesnt murder me or anyone I care about then we're five by five.
Im extremely hungry that is one thing the internet cant solve. Man illegal downloading of food? FoodTube. Thatd be awesome but a lot of people would just upload literal shit. Why are people so annoying?
kizmitt outt
