I cant help but feel a slight anticlimax regarding my purchase of a wii finally. i mean sure yay finally, but theres noone to share this joy with. Sarah and Nell are too busy doing assignments, and sarah already played wii back when aaron first got one. and Nell is totally ignorant when it comes to gaming. Aaron as said before already has a wii and he appears to be pissed off at me for some reason. All i know is he doesnt talk to me anymore and he usually locks himself in his room. Ive experienced this before, each time ive said it was all in my head and each time it was real. Please dont let it be real this time, I like this house.
So yeah, theres no love there. Natalie and the gang are indifferent to this kind of thing or too busy yada yada yawn. The only people who were excited for me was pam (who never visits) and Lucy who i work with. Now im saying that I was expecting anyone to mention any congrats on getting a wii without resorting to borrowed money or to say good for you, youve got what ou wanted. But seriously? Nothing? What is wrong with this country? Its not like wiis are old hat. I dont understand how wiis are so unpopular in New zealand. So unpopular that the price hasnt dropped much at all. Gragh
Also I only have wii sports. Which is a game i didnt bloody want in the first place as its fun for about 10 minutes then gets really old really fast. Alone anyway. Like eyetoy.
In uni news, I got back my first assignment today. 13.5/15 or 90% Not bad for one done in an hour or so while singing constantly after putting it off for 5 weeks. Take that Sarah and Nell. I may be unmotivated but I get the job done if I have to. Wow that'd make for a real depressing slogan. Who would want to hire me for my services? Does anyone else feel a horrible crushing feeling when you see that guy clean the pool moments before all the dirty kids jump in and inevitably filth it up again. I'd hate that job so much.
Also my research proposal which was written in a rush and handed in 30 minutes late (but seeing as only 4 out of 10 people even handed theres in at all, it wasnt a huge issue anymore) was approved. Or rather I was told it was a valid research project and an interesting idea at that. fans of fan cultures. Or fan produced content of fan produced content. Fun times.
I was doubting myself so much and now i think i know why. It seems that whenever I have an opinion about something it is ALWAYS shot down or wrong by those that I live with. Take tonights example for instance. ugh I so shouldnt be doing this but I need to unload so thats the end of my update people. You can close out now. Kizmitt out and what have you.
Gone? Ok, see this is what went down. I mentioned the fact that new zealand gamers are crazy because wiis are not the highest selling console like in all other countries and the only other country is portugal. Just an off hand comment about me bitching about having to get sports with my wii because new zealand wont get any other bundles because there isnt enough sales to warrant things like that. You know just making small talk. I say sony owns 75% of new zealands gaming market.
Then Nell and Sarah decide that its because New Zealanders are more into playing sports and other things then playing video games. What the hell right? Regardless if that was true or not that had nothing to do with what I was saying. I try to tell them that, thats not what I was meaning. They say that clearly it must be a factor in the low sale of wiis, and there arent many people in new zealand then there are in america. fine but i was talking about PERCENTAGES. Nell tries to go on one of her 'I have world experience' rants claiming to know for a fact that wiis are popular overseas. Um yeah, I dont think they listen to me at all.
Seriously I think they block me out until they hear one thing i say out of context and shoot me down with a retort. And me being a incredibly bad debater as I am so damn unsure of myself so I get thrown off balance. But no not this time, I know I know what im talking about and they must be told. Lately I had mastered the art of just shutting up when someone argued with me because arguing a point is fruitless. I couldnt let this one stand. they were not going to lord their 'we think your a worthless sack of potatoes because you have never played sports and like to play video games instead which is a mind rotting experience and has no merit or value in todays society regardless of all the studies done and the fact that you completed a damn paper on it last year' bullshit over me any longer. And I wasnt even arguing that. I was defending my orignal statement that iwas talking about the percentage of new zealand GAMERS buying Wiis. Not new zealanders as a whole. so being too busy to play video games had nothing to do with it. When that point finally got through after 5 minutes of arguing over such a stupid little thing. Sarah has the nerve to tell me I didnt need to get so angry and should calm down as she didnt fully understand what i had previously said. (WHA!?) While Nell makes some meek comment behind a wall about saying a statement not a question even though she had clearly started with a 'But what about-'
I told them that I wasnt angry. then fell silent. Then didnt really talk to them for the rest of the night. I just went up to my room and interneted. Now I am more annoyed then angry, you will notice by the lack of 'fuck'. When I am angry I swear that is when it is appropriate and that is when I do it. Unless its to make a joke or a reference that only I get. But you can usually tell. Its called context.
So yes I think this may be why im so unsure of myself because I constantly have to live with being told Im wrong. Man can people not accept that I'm right for once? I accept the stuff you tell me. Even if I know its crap. Unless its referring to something I truly believe in or hold dear you wont hear a peep out of me saying you're wrong. Unless you're just being ignorant but thats when you should be corrected because learning helps us play. My unfair rant is bigger then my update. Oh well good thing you all closed out of it when I told you to.
